Friday, June 1, 2012

12 in 2012 {june}

today begins the 6th month of 2012. is it flying by for you in the same way it's flying by for me? we have reached the half way mark.  this month is particularly, and immeasurably, significant for us this year because our son is getting married.

June 9, 2012.


it's a date we've had on the calendar for nearly a year. and it's now a week away.  and while i'm filled to overflowing with joy and excitement {due to the obvious happiness that a certain beautiful girl clearly brings my boy}, i'm also fighting back fears of my inadequate parenting. what if it turns out i missed a few things? what if it turns out i let some stuff fall between the gaps? what if there are lessons i skipped, information i failed to relay, facts i totally goofed up, or important advice i forgot to give?
{well... in my case, they'll be living next door so i'll just write a note or run over there real quick}.
but seriously!!!! all those thoughts have crossed my mind.  my season as mommy to Solomon is over. i will always be his mother, but he no longer needs me as his mommy. and sometimes i wonder if i did a good job. if i could've done a better job...

the fear and doubt and insecurity that attempts to make it's way into my head on days like these can be debilitating. they can keep me from joy, blind me from truth and trick me into a downward spiral.  BUT i have a not-so-secret-weapon: the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God {Ephesians 6:17}.  and at this half way point in our journey of memorizing one verse each month, i find that i need the strength that the Lord brings more than ever. i need the truth and encouragement that the Word gives.  my verse for this month reflects that... it also reflects the fact that I KNOW the victory comes, will come, has come!!

crystal; whitefish, mt; Psalm 118:14 "The Lord is my strength and my song; He has given me victory!"

feel free to post your verse for the month of June in the comment section below::


Remington Villa said...

Don't ever doubt your work as a mother. Congratulations on your new daughter! She looks like she belongs to the family... Its funny how I grew up listening to your music.. following your career since i was literally five (because of my sisters).. now that i'm 25.. its like i grew up with solomon too.. hearing stories through your music and concerts! wow how time flies!

Mahalo :)

btw... its quite hard poting comments to this blog it gives a lot of errors when i do! :)

*playing* Jesus belongs in your heart Album: The Bride

Rubyellen said...

this is a beautiful picture! enjoy this next week!!! can't wait to see the turn out!

Mary said...

Mary Venice, Florida
James 1:2-4 The Message
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenge come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.

Tina said...
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Tina said...

Oh we always feel inadequate or feel like we messed up somewhere, but I see it this way ... God gave us the children He did because He knew he could trust us with them and knows our influence in their lives are the foundation into who they will become for Christ. Because you are in Christ you can't go wrong, even our mistakes (and we all make them) work for their good! Your son will rise and call you Blessed!!

Crystal Lewis said...

thanks Tina!! what an encouragement that is to me!